- A new year New Life
- January 10th, 2011
Yeah ALOT has gone on since i last posted on here. Well lets see i gained 30 pounds BLEH, but that's because i have a beautiful little daughter now. Her name is Fiona Grace, and she'll be 10 weeks this weekend wow! I'm turning 23 very very soon omg i can't believe that yikes! I still have terrible self-esteem, I don't cut anymore although i always feel the urge to when i get upset, and i've taken up scrap booking. I hate that my house is a mess, I hate that i can't see my clavicals, and i am dying to get to my goal weight. I need control in my life because i feel its spiraling out of control. My daughter is what keeps me going, my husband still has his porn addiction and it kills me. I'm tired of not trusting him. I want to believe i'm beautiful and when i'm 99 pounds i will be.